You wrote this story from the heart, Shayla. It is such an important topic affecting our mental health. I am glad you added the suicide note at the end as I really met such people who attempted to it as their brain chemistry got imbalanced. Thank you for sharing your valuable experience. I felt very sorry for your challenges. A few years ago I shared an inspiring story of a friend who overcame eating disorders. I link the story here to back up your wonderful one. https://medium.com/sensible-biohacking-transhumanism/an-anorexic-boy-becomes-a-top-bodybuilder-after-fixing-physical-and-mental-health-issues-2edde9125cfe