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"I Allow the Ego to Dance with Higher Self to Find the Sweet Spot in Life"

https://medium.com/sensible-biohacking-transhumanism/allow-the-ego-to-dance-with-higher-self-to-find-the-sweet-spot-in-life-820845bd45b5