I like your great story, Gerald. I believe many writers experience this syndrome naturally. It happened to me many times. It comes from survival and protection instincts in the brain and mind. But if we tap into the intellectual side intentionally despite discomfort, these feelings gradually dissolve. Whenever we have a new idea brain sees it as a treat until we visualize and register it in our memories where growth happens. Thank you for sharing your struggles giving valuable perspectives to other writers.Your stories are engaging and meaningful. I wish you the best in your writing journey.